JMJ Pray for Us

If you've called the house chances are all you hear are screams and cries from this cute adorable little baby. Again, don't let this little smirk fool you. Today was better thanks to an overdose of gas drops and lots of bouncing, burping, and a few calls to the doctor. Avery has been terribly fussy and it seems to be from pain and not just the unusual discomforts of the No, No's and incision itching.
Yesterday was a duzy! After being fussy all day she cried.. well screamed.. off and on from 7pm to 12am. No joking- no exaggeration. Once we got her to sleep she slept all night in a elevated bassinet right next to mommy. She was so elevated she slid to the bottom of the bed. The doctor said if she is sleeping all night there is a good chance there is nothing seriously wrong with her. I am not so sure this is very comforting, but we are going with it for now. We know gas is her enemy- like it has been in the past and we are saying she has reflux. She's had two doses of the medication and if she's better by Monday we can officially say she has reflux. If not, the doctor wants to see her. She does have all the symptoms of reflux.. everyone of them.
The only thing we can think of that has changed since surgery is that she no longer gets to sleep on her belly like she's been doing since birth- (she loves pressure on her belly) and no longer can soothe herself by sucking on a binki or her hands. She misses her big crib too. We think all this time spent sleeping on her back since surgery might have made her reflux problem worse.
My poor baby just looks at me and screams like "please mommy do something" or "Don't you see I am in pain here"- Heart breaking!!! She does let up when I hold her, but if I give her to Jeff she loses it. The kind of scream that makes her choke. She only wants mommy when she is in this mode- I don't blame her.
The kids have been great.. feeling so bad for their baby sister and wanting to help. I am only getting to pump 2 times a day which is not enough.
My only saving grace is when she is upright in this baby carrier next to me. Avery loves the CD soundtrack from Curious George and also the song Burning Ring of Fire from my Walk the Line CD. She doesn't even mind if mommy sings out loud. She also likes vacuums, bathtubs, and laying naked in her crib. These things will at times soothe her. Well, It's almost 8 pm and I hear her starting up again. I pray that we figure this out.. for Avery.. for all of us!